Former AOA Member Kwon Mina Shares Alleged Bullying Incidents By Jimin In Latest Instagram Update And Urges Jimin To Contact Her
AOA‘s former member, Kwon Mina, has recently stepped up to further share more alleged bullying incidents. She names Shin Jimin as the perpetrator. Previously, she had updated her Instagram in dismay due to criticisms that Jimin was turning into the victim.
Mina shared that she had always been at the end of bullying from Jimin. Allegedly, Jimin led group attacks against her, and also criticized her to bring her self-esteem down.
During the trainee days, trivial errands and water-fetching errands were like whatever. But during a group punishment, I was the only one who got hit with fists in the chest repeatedly while getting cursed at. Whenever that occurred, it just so happened that that unnie always were the one right at the front. During promotions for “Confused”, I had lost a lot of weight and that unnie said, “Why is your body like that? You look like a r*tard” but in the end, she herself was even skinnier than me. From the start, the company gave me the position of rap, and I mainly took lessons for it. Later on, I came to be in charge of bass as well and mostly took lessons for the two. So it’s a given that I only took a few vocal classes. However, after debut, the composer said that my voice suited vocals way better, and so I practiced singing every dawn and did recordings. Of course, there were times where the vocal directors liked it, and times where they didn’t. The vice-CEO at that time and JYH sunbae had also praised me during a song recording before. Whenever that happened, I was so happy but whenever I gained a little self-confidence, that unnie would endlessly criticize only me for my singing, be it in the car or wherever. As it was something that repeatedly occurred, whenever it came to recording sessions, my body would shake all over and it was so terrifying that I had to take many tranquilizers. Dance time was no exception as well. While I was criticized continuously, there was once where unnie was in the wrong formation and I told her about it. She didn’t reply but there was that unique gaze from her that’s always directed at me. I was (surprised) that I wasn’t cursed out…
— Kwon Mina
Mina also shared that Jimin would allegedly often bring people unannounced to the dorms, giving Mina much inconvenience. This forced Mina to sleep in the practice rooms, later affecting her vision and eyes.
The dorms are a place of co-living so if I invite people over, even if just for a short while, I would get permission from unnie and the other members. But as unnie, much like herself, didn’t have anyone to get permission from, she would bring people over as she wished, without telling us. There was once where I ran into team leader Song Yoonho, who is a male, in the middle of the night when I was going about completely naked while carrying a laundry basket. Unnie would also often call over her close friend, a gagman, at night and they would noisily play. There was also once where they called me to come out to the living room, via the phone, when I was sleeping in the room. There was once I rejected them as I had to sleep after taking sleeping pills, while once I played with them and had to go out to the playground near the apartment for a game punishment before returning. Since then, when that guest would come over, I would pack my sleeping pills and say I would go to the practice rooms. I would sleep on the desk at the practice rooms and afterwards, my eyes were not able to look forward properly in the mirror, be it at the salon or during dance practice. That person even once said that my face was f*cked. I was always looking somewhere diagonally down.
— Kwon Mina
Mina shared how Jimin allegedly forced her to think twice before expression emotion over her dad’s illness, causing Mina to not be able to fully accompany her dad in his final moments.
Then one day, at the salon, since there were times when we didn’t know who would be there, during such days, (that unnie) would start scolding me again in the car for not greeting, or not greeting them properly. She would begin like that, then go around cursing the members, be it for personal reasons or malicious comments. As she fought with someone, and got mad and cried, she couldn’t go for a reality show schedule, so me and two other members went on instead. For a music show schedule, she didn’t want to go but after being coaxed and coddled she was brought along to the schedule. When she cried after a survival show, saying it was tough, everyone still comforted her. That kind of a person discovered the one silent tear I cried when my dad was about to die and dragged me to a closet, saying that I was ruining the mood and asked why people had to be mindful of me. Unnie lived while receiving comfort even when unnie ruined the mood, but since I couldn’t do that, I was only able to see my dad at the hospital during night-time or dawn after schedules, while having to film for a drama the very next day. I had to see the members and during that week, if I saw (my father) deteriorating, I was afraid I would think of it and cry, so I turned off the lights at home and held it in, and wasn’t able to go (see him) after. Somewhere (or someone) mentioned that I was given two weeks? There was no such thing. I was so busy due to promotions for “Like a Cat” and filming for Modern Farmer. Watching over (my dad) as he passed on? My mom called saying that he seemed like he would be passing on soon and I rushed over to the hospital when I heard that. In the 5 to 10 minutes where I had reached, I heard the beeping sound and the announcement for his time of death, and saw that he had written in shaky words on a sketchbook, “My daughter…where am…I?” I felt guilty that I had not been able to see my father frequently because of that damned “mindfulness for others”, and had to send him off without even saying a single word that I loved him.
— Kwon Mina
Mina also shared that she received a stress-induced illness, allegedly because of Jimin. She also shared that a different friend left due to Jimin.
Even so, as I went on with schedules, I thought that it was okay for awhile. But I was taken to the hospital for a causal seizure and fainted easily. I received a diagnosis for cervical dysplastic cancer and they said that stress was a huge cause for this, so I went so that’s it. At around 26 years of age, under that unnie’s torture, my teeth were quivering and I had no choice but to take medications and attend events, but (that unnie) looked at me and asked why in the world was I stressed. At that, my eyes lost focus and I looked at her while smiling slightly, because of how speechless I was, thinking on the inside that it was because of her.
I got into contact with a friend that also left after having received treatment for two weeks because of unnie and we talked about each others’ conditions which we didn’t know about and she left quickly because she could not endure it, but when I heard her say that I had held it in for too long that it was bursting now, I was so upset and apologetic that I had hoped (the target) would be another member as it was so severe towards only me. It was so much that all the other members acknowledged it. From things such as having to hear stuff like, you don’t know anything so don’t talk about it, to hearing “do you think you’re going to become something?” after I came back from acting auditions.
— Kwon Mina
Mina also alleges that she listened to Jimin despite it potentially causing the staff to view her unfavorably.
Whenever new managers would come, you would always introduce me first, like you were mocking me, saying that she’s a scary b*tch who pretends to be an idiot. When contract renewal season came, (we agreed) to talk about this and that (during the renewal), but only I kept that promise. That unnie only talked about her own solo and finished discussions. I was so happy with my work and it was fun, that when (people) were complaining about the pay or the full schedules, on the inside, I thought that we should be thankful that we were earning more than those our age, and for having many schedules. I thought that they had never experienced poverty when they were younger and that they had too much they were unsatisfied with. Thinking about it, whatever you told us to say in the company, the only person who kept the promise and actually said it, was me. I tried hard to gain unnie’s favor, using whatever means. Whether the company saw me favorably or not, who I was really scared of was you. Even during the trainee days, when I was ridiculously wrongly accused of calling you a son of a b*tch, I don’t know if you heard wrong or if you had just wanted to relieve your anger, you kicked up a fuss but I only smiled while telling you that I didn’t say that as I could never say that to the oldest unnie. But you still acted out. If you don’t like something, say it, and tell me what you don’t like. Or, if everyone could not think of this too much like a business, and prevent fights from occurring if someone tried to take their life and is unstable mentally. It was so obvious to the eye that she didn’t like me. Your answers were so simple, saying you don’t remember or that it didn’t happen.
— Kwon Mina
Mina also accused Jimin of being a bully prior to their adult days, then continuing this into adulthood.
And Jimin-ah, you used the names of the company sunbae oppas as well as the other sunbaes, in order to get money and cigarettes? If you played around during your school days, you should’ve ended it here or kept in mind that there is a line to keep. I believed that you would get a grip after you became an adult. When I was swollen due to being ill, rather than (worrying for) my health, you looked at me like you were fascinated and asked, why is your face like this? It’s too much? You were busy criticizing my looks and when you came to my house to apologize, forget about an apology but you were looking for a knife? Unfortunately, I was at the point where all sharp objects had been confiscated, and you brought people on your side over so that obviously you would’ve been stopped. Would they have let a single scratch come onto your body? If you had screamed that it would be okay if you died, why didn’t you put it into action when you went home? I attempted that almost daily. In ten years, what I experienced is not just this. I should’ve recorded everything. My memory isn’t good but even so, I remember this.
— Kwon Mina
Mina also shared that she was upset during their last confrontation but was unable to act out. Mina revealed her childhood and teen years which were full of struggle.
With a sincere apology, I could have forgiven ten years worth of disgusting experiences in a single moment. Because you kept saying you didn’t remember and that it didn’t happen, and that it was fiction? When we were talking I swore on both our dads whom I trust would have been watching, that I would only tell the truth. Even now, I am not lying. Forget about lying, I’m upset that there’s more I can’t remember about. Anyway, at that time, because you said you didn’t remember and that you didn’t do it, I cursed strongly and I wanted to hit you as much as I had been on the receiving end of. Honestly, since there were so many people on your side there, if any evidence was recorded of me, a victim of 10 years could instantly become a perpetrator. So I could only cry tears of anger. (You) said sorry without knowing what you did wrong, and put on a trash expression and left. I had been worrying since I was 12 and finally began earning my own keep at 14, hence I have met many types of people and experienced many different things and trashy people. I was caught up with many weird kids after dropping out of middle school and starting to work part-time, got taken advantage of while rumors about me got dirty and misunderstandings cropped up, so I wasn’t viewed positively. I lived while working furiously without sleeping, saying I would earn lots of money back while running away, saving up to about 2,000,000 in the latter half of my sixteenth year, right before I became a trainee. Wherever you go, people are going to power trip you. Although I am a high school graduate, honestly I’m not that much different from being an elementary school graduate. I took the GEDs during middle school and went to an open secondary school (high school for people who are not able to attend normal schools). So I make many mistakes with vocabulary and I speak with regional dialect mixed in and there are many times where my words come out weird. Even so, unnie thought that I was acting like that on purpose, to be thought of as cute. But 10 years, where you were worse than any trash I ever imagined. That continuous torture has made me so upset and angry even up to now. Did I ever engage in a stand-off with you? What did I do? The expenses where I was dragged away to the ER due to you can amount up to thousands. Even if they raise the medication amount, it doesn’t really work. I didn’t receive a sincere apology and your family didn’t apologize nor show their faces. They probably are resenting me without knowing that their own daughter has killed a person.
— Kwon Mina
Lastly, Mina shared the pain Jimin allegedly caused her and asks for Jimin to reach out to her for a conversation.
The perpetrator is always the one that lives on while the victim tries to die by suicide through a variety of ways and gets hurt while developing a mental illness and eventually gets physically ill too and passes on in vain, there are many victims like that. Because of you, I too, have cut my wrist more than 20 times and have tried to overdose on sleeping pills, carbon monoxide, hanging, I’ve tried every way I know. I don’t know if my life-line is terribly long or if it’s because someone saves me every time but whenever I open my eyes, I’m in the hospital. Whenever talks of you arise, I get mad and cry. But I will not be silent like other victims. When time passes, will I be doing what I love and living well, or will I still be locked in my memories, forever being tortured because of one person called Shin Jimin, or will I disappear even before then because I can’t take it anymore? I want to please have a conversation with you alone. You have my contact number. If you tortured me for 10 years, if you’re human, don’t ignore this. I want you to speak on if I really did make this all up or if I had hurt you in any way. I absolutely have nothing to hide. I’m so amazed that I’ve not died yet from anger, due to what I’ve experienced from you.
— Kwon Mina
Previously, Mina had accused Jimin of being her bully throughout her time in AOA.
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